“National Poetry Day is an annual celebration that inspires people throughout the UK to enjoy, discover and share poems.”
My Definition of Free
Freedom is fullness,
A life lived in truth
With nothing to hide.
Love freely given
No matter the cost,
Risks freely taken
No opportunity lost.
Freedom is waiting
For destiny’s call
A life lived in hope
Of the greatest gift of all.
I wrote this poem many years ago, when the concept of freedom was to me like a fairytale is to a small child: a nice make-believe story. One can always dream, I thought, but one should never be so foolish as to expect the dreams to come true.
For years I lived trapped within the confines of my mind. It was dark and disconsolate existence, and one which I truly resented. The notion of ever being free from this way of thinking, feeling, being was laughable. And yet here I am, learning how it is to feel full and whole, and learning that the fairytale can still be real even when things go wrong.
Life is not either good or bad – it is both, sometimes at once, sometimes in equal measures but not always. For me, a whole lot of freedom has come from truly understanding this – that a bad life does not necessarily preclude a good one (if indeed this distinction can me made at all?).
Poetry has undoubtedly been an integral part of my healing as it has always felt safe to me: the ability to express myself without necessarily exposing myself, and in some of my darkest moments, I have been able to articulate what I could not give voice to in any other way. I dare say that the smallest, most creative part of me, always knew that there was a freedom worth holding on for, and worth fighting for.
Whatever your particular dream of freedom may be, don’t stop believing and don’t stop fighting. And write a poem just because you can. You can!
Ps: As it is National Poetry Day I think it would be rude not to mention that there are several poems in my book, A Sad and Sorry State of Disorder – A Journey into Borderline Personality Disorder (and out the other side) just in case you were looking to read some more!