My Book

If you’re looking for a self-help book or a miracle cure, this isn’t the book for you.

However… if you want to understand BPD, gain some insight, or know that you’re not alone then this book might be exactly what you’re looking for…

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My first book, A Sad and Sorry State of Disorder – A Journey into Borderline Personality Disorder (and out the other side) was published in 2017 by Jessica Kingsley Publishers. Rather than subjecting you to the cacophony of me attempting to blow my own trumpet, I’ve gathered together some reviews and endorsements that will tell you all you need to know. You can purchase your very own copy of my book right here, right now!

This is a wonderful book, beautifully written, brutally honest, and giving invaluable insight into what it’s like to live with borderline personality disorder (BPD) and how recovery is possible. The structure of the book is ingenious. Each diagnostic criteria is discussed in turn and the way they are connected to each other drawn out. This really helps to make sense of what BPD is like on the inside: it turns a list of symptoms into a real and human psychology. The book also contains poems that Tracy Barker wrote when she was unwell and which give vivid expression to the emotions and despair that characterise BPD. I think the book will help friends and family of those with BPD understand it better and it may also help people with BPD feel they are not alone. The book is also very funny at places — which helps to temper some of the more painful writing. More than anything else this book offers hope.


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Tracy is a talented writer and poet, and this heartfelt book will be of use and interest to anyone who suffers from, or knows someone who suffers from, personality disorder. The book is honest, engaging, and upbeat – Tracy shows her journey and the steps on the way to a much happier and fulfilled life. The lows are very low, but her strength, talent, and determination shine through, and anyone else feeling low can only be inspired by her story. Highly recommended.

(Dan Knowles, CEO, Oxfordshire Mind)

This book is a tremendous insight into the mind of someone with borderline personality disorder; it delves into the dark (and light) truths of the disorder, revealing symptoms that so many encounter but very few discuss.

(Lucy Spraggan, singer-songwriter)

This thoughtful and enormously readable book presents a valuable insight for clinical practitioners and for anyone impacted directly or indirectly by borderline personality disorder. The author offers a real opportunity to gain an understanding of both the emotional and clinical elements of borderline personality disorder. Her very personal and moving insight into the emotions and responses experienced, demystifies an often-misunderstood disorder.

(Alison Matheson, Psychotherapist, Oxfordshire Counselling

What a pleasure it was to read this honest and heartfelt book. The author writes eloquently about what a struggle being a ‘borderliner’ has been, but importantly makes it possible for a general reader to make a connection, drawing them in with empathy and a degree of understanding. It tells a powerful story very clearly, without self-indulgence (despite being such a personal testimony) and makes for thoughtful and enriching reading.

(Ben Ballin, Education Consultant)

It was such a pleasure to read this book. It is beautifully written, both the prose and the poetry. This is a first-person account, from someone diagnosed with personality disorder, which offers understanding and hope and which will speak to many people.

(Dr Heather Castillo, Independent Consultant and author of ‘Personality Disorder Temperament or Trauma?’ and ‘The Reality of Recovery in Personality Disorder’)

You can find more reviews on Amazon and Goodreads. If you do decide to read my book, please leave an honest review for me, somewhere!